Perhaps there's a limit to everything after all......

i don't care what the hell they think of me,

i don't care why things turn out this way,

i don't give a damn about it anyway.........

i been sooo frustrated with money matters theres lots i want but none i can afford,why the hell is it soooooooo hard.......??????

let's just say damn u for failing in life faridfaisal why why why?

life just seems to stop ever since i been in that bloody place.

and i realised the frens i mean most of the frens i have are always giving excuses when i wanna hang out with them coz they know im just a piece of broke ass.haha now im learning who is true to me and who is not.

it's really annoying and sad to go to work with a heavy heart everyday but i guess this is what life has to be for now.

cheap labour,being fucked everyday and being called this line everyday,

"eh boy remember ah you are nothing okay u hear me,u are nothing!better do the things i ask u to do properly or i will charge u with insubordination aite."

words said by so-called men people look upon for help and people look up to as heroes.

haha but i guess im just glad to be facing the ugly side of the things that people don't see,i admit that probably it's not as bad as it seems,but

TRY BEING IN MY SHOES PEOPLE AND YOU WILL KNOW WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO BE TREATED LIKE A DOG OR COOLIE AND THEN BEING SCOLDED FOR LITTLE OR MINOR THINGS WHICH ARE JUST NOT NECESSARY at all.come on man im just doing what i can man.


try being given task A,B AND C and then suddenly out of nowhere another asshole comes and drag u away from ur task saying he needs ur help urgently when they have no decency to at least let me organise my stuffs on my table and pause whatever i was doing properly first. wat the fuck

and then i come back to my task A,B and C and is lost with what i was supposed to do...... and then get fucked by the people looking for me to get task A,B and C as soon as possible. fuck it sia fuck the life fuck the place fuck the people.

it's sad that i used to admire u guys and respect u guys for being in such a noble career but now all i have to say to u guys is


FUCK YOU




gtg then

peace@fate

"i have no idea why but i realised that having to go through all this on my own,really hurts and sucks,but im confident i will learn something from all of this.sooner or later i will get thru this..and there's something to gain out of it all."

At times, i wonder.............

well,its sunday 5pm.boring and relaxing day for me,hehe.well like i said in the past it was awesome to actually have nothing on for the day planned and just relaxing haha.

but nonethless i just came back from shopping,yes had to buy some daily essentials for myself and also had to pay off some stuffs.


iLLiana has been performing badly for the past few weeks,and i just realised that it was the engine oil after all when i check my bike servicing logbook to realise that the last time i changed her engine oil was in September.haha no wonder even when i pumped Vpower she wasn't responding at all.

Nonetheless am glad that she is doing well after an oil change and getting the Motul 8000 2T and Engine ICE from my riding buddy zul since he had some balance of them.

And im really impressed by the Motul 2T that zul has recommended me but it dawns on me that theres a price to pay for everything.

Got to know that the Motul 8000 2T cost $35 for 1 bottle,coz its a racing 2T specially made for performance,haha i can't even comprehend what to say when i saw the bottle.

i mean im already using the best i can afford and so-called the best recommended CASTROL POWER 1 RACING 2T selling at $16 bucks per bottle and zul can easily buy that 8000 2T for 35 bucks for 1 BLOODY BOTTLE.It's like equivalent to 2 of the 2T brand im using with 3 bucks to spare.

well thats the main difference with people earning a regular salary compared to someone who earns $400 per month,i know i like to compare but i really am pissed off with how long more i have to serve the bloody nation.

The temptation to sign on the dotted line is high but also i wonder what i will do if i don't sign.

haix........im at a loss,being 23 and earning 400 per month,how pathetic.

And what's more i can't even afford lots of stuffs much less find a galfren coz i would probably be scrimping and saving just to take a girl out for a date,haix story of my life...............

im sooooooo hating my life.......but sooo wishing i was not 23,but god had to put me thru this,i even wonder how i will get my life sorted out.


MONEY........IS EVERYTHING..............NO MONEY,NO TALK........SIMPLE AS THAT.

haix,probably i will have to sell off iLLiana if things get any worser than this.

gtg then

peace@fate

" You are not a failure. A failure is someone who does not try. When you try, you may not hit the target, but at least you gave it your every effort and now have the opportunity to try again. That is what true success is."

Degree,my plans my future.

firstly i badly wanna get myself a laptop! i have no idea why but i just wish to own one as im sick of using desktop maybe.

well am on MC for today,so kinda resting for the day.been pretty much cleaning and organising my room and my stuffs.

and lots and lots of thoughts about my future came to me,i was asking myself, where do i go? what do i want? what do i know?

and all along i still ponder and pity myself for still serving the nation and earning 400 per month.it's easy to say be thankful for what has been given but i dare those who say that to be in my shoes and feel what living on 400 per month feels like.

im lucky my bike has been fully paid or else i would be struggling to pay it the monthly installments as it is.

and im lucky that i don't have a gf although i so badly wish i had one,maklumlah siapa tak nak berpunya kan?

haix haha but at least i still love my single and lonely life coz i still get to date and get to know as many girls as i want.what's more theres so much to be improved about myself that sometimes being single ain't that bad after all.

well simply said this post is dediced to my personal goal and that is to attain a degree before the age of 30 years old,yes i am aiming to get to a degree level very soon.

been pondering as to where do i go since i attained my diploma thankfully as there are some classmates of mine whom im in contact with that didn't manage to graduate.

i wonder what i will do next but for now i just want to enjoy my ns life and learn all the lessons that i have to learn so far.

farid faisal hopes to be a useful and important person to his loved ones,and wishes the best of the people around him.

one thing that could be true about me was,there's no one who is closer to me to know me through and through than ME,MYSELF AND I.


aite

gtg then

peace@fate

"lots more lessons to learn soo little time =p"

New visions,new missions......

It's sunday,almost 11pm,almost time to hit the sack already.Been a crazy week so far with ending it with a tiring Saturday as i was on road duty for Thaipusam.

Crazy and emotional week so far so this coming week im hoping for a quiet and chillax week can i?

Haix,im hoping to just let this whole episode of my life away.i sometimes realise how beautiful this world is and how much more i have not seen.

haha maybe i was blinded with my own world all along?

well had a nice chat with someone from long ago in my life,i can't believe she still remembers me after all this time =p thank you.

and yeah we went out and stuffs and i told her all about my life,im just amazed at how much she has changed,and i have no idea why but she suddenly opened up my mind about how she wish to change all about me,haha i still remember the line,

"you are still the same with that messy hair,that low self-esteem attitude,and that crappy personality,i really wish you realise your potential seriously.change faridfaisal muin,please......"

and yeah how i wish at that moment i can tell her i wish i met her much much earlier in my life.I mean she's not the same person i knew long long ago,but the energy that she has,basically kinda grow on me although it was just a normal dinner outing with no purpose whatsoever,and

surprisingly i took public transport with her that evening sia,so the shocking! haha =p

sometimes i look bak at my old times,haha how lame i am and i still am, =p

haha k then like i told myself before,changes will come slowly aite?

btw GYM training is progressing yeah haha i wanna go all the way ah!!!!!!! wooohooooo!


gtg then

peace@fate

"i have no idea why i keep trying,but i dare to,and i will."

love does not begin the way we seem to think it does. love is a war; love is growing up.

it could be true if i never bothered to much what people think of me,

it could be true that i have been living in my own world,

it could be true that it's time for changes,

it could be true that this year will be the defining year for me,

it could be true if i said i wish i could turn back time,

it could be true if i said i miss my old life,

it could be true that i took too long to move on,

it could be true that there's so much weakness in me,

it could be true that i wish i really could do things that i want to do.


maybe it's a little too late, better like they say,better late than never than

gtg then

peace@fate

"thank you god,for opening my eyes now,i shall not fear mistakes or failures for im here to let myself learn it all over again."

It's sad when someone you know becomes someone you knew.

well saturday was probably the best day in my life ever.went out on a date with a very very hot chick,haha actually couldn't believe it when i went out with her.

but nonetheless at least i learn a lot of things though,haha

would love to share it more here but on to other topics,

things are seemingly weird,i lost my mp3 yesterday when i was out on that date and also when my own pal Mz lost his phone the day before too.

but it's kinda sad for that mp3 was my dearest pal,i mean usually people would say their handphone is their best pal coz it means a lot but for me the zen stone plus mp3 was the best purchase i ever made.

it was my companion when i was working crazy shifts for macdelivery working 24 hours and was my only companion when i was working late nights sending food to even scary places like the jetty.

it was my only companion when i was in camp for 6 months,everynight and everytime im sad or bored,it will be there for me no matter what.

so here's a little something i made up to dedicate this post to my dearest mp3, Rest In Peace dear baby......

you were the little thing that caught my eye,
when i was looking for an mp3,
you were the little cutie that i love,
you were just the perfect little monster,

through thick and thin,wherever i go you will follow,
you were my singing buddy in the toilet even,=p

even though you are small but you pack a punch,

i drop u like countless number of times,
even drop u into the pool of water but u still survived,
i still wonder where u are right now but i sure wanna say

thank you,for all the times that you have been with me.

it would be surprising to say
but eyes went watery once i knew u were gone from my life,

i will probably never forget you,i will always love you my dearest zen stone plus,

thank you............

haix this is soo emoish hehe

gtg then

peace@fate

" We learn more about ourselves when we fail...so, don't be afraid of failing. Failure is a part of the long process of success. People who do not fail are those who do nothing.

The beauty of it.......letting go.......and whatever will be will be then.

hey hey hey,im posting this at almost 2am in the morning,after collapsing to a deep nap straight away after reaching home! how sad and stressful my life is.

Maybe it's just me but i guess working with real people in the workforce,im kinda sucked into their life already,i remember quarelling with someone who is trying to push their responsibility to me.

Idiot came to my table and things went like this.....

Idiot:Eh,boy this stack of stuffs ah u go and get boss[name is confidential] to endorse and then return to me at my table ok.

i look over and realised he is pushing this crap that he is supposed to be doing himself to me.

Me:But this kinda confidential stuffs i got do before,was told by boss i cannot do this kinda thing for u guys,i will get scolding sia,besides this is your job sia.

Idiot:Eh,what sia u last time the previous SC also do the same thing for me never say anything,now u sooo noisy u know,useless sia.

Me:Ya,man sorry ah i useless ah bro,i only serving my 2 years contract here sia,so bopian i have to be USELESS ah since im earning only 400 while you are earning 3kplus of salary sia.

He paiseh already so pick up the stuff he trying to push to me and left.

Hahaha thats how corrupted i have become,from being pushed around by everyone to the point that i hate my life there now and wished i was somewhere else.

I just realised and forgot that there's nothing to fear at all and that im just serving my slavery there.No matter how hard i work efforts will not be appreciated nor will it be rewarded.

haix how silly i am haha,from now on im letting go of my worries and just letting things be as it is.

OKAY thats all i want to rant today,

peace@fate

" Life doesn't deal the hand you want, it deals the hand you need. Whether you believe it, accept it, want it or not, it is what it is. Be content with your own hand. STOP trying to rush life, just let it happen. Learn to live out the life dealt. What will be, will be!"